Hey everybody! I’ve been pretty busy lately helping my parents with their meals. They’ve both been transitioning their diet into a more Plant Based one which is awesome! My dad has actually been taking walks and he looks so much better these days. I could not be more thankful and happy about the changes he willing made on his own. I couldn’t be more proud of him.
Aside from all the blessings going on in my life, there has been some rough patches here and there. The usual. For the most part. The almighty dollar… or lack there of. The ongoing violence in my neighborhood and just in my city… it makes you fearful to even go for a walk. And that awful feeling I’ll be stuck living here, struggling to buy my bananas (heh!), pay bills and rent. Negativity gets the best of us sometimes. It definitely took a toll on me today.
I woke up at 5:30am to help make my husband with his breakfast and get his lunch together for work as he got ready to leave to work another double shift, again. I just felt too tired to stay awake (usually I try to stay awake and get some exercise in). So I crawled back to bed. Unfortuntely, it took me an hour or more to fall back to sleep and the alarm went off as soon as I got some shuteye. So, I turned that sucker off and went back to bed. Probably not the best idea since it was pretty late when I finally did get up. I don’t know about you guys but, I’ve never been a morning person. I use to have a keychain that said “Night Owl”. I hated mornings. I’m still getting use to them but, it’s so much nicer out that early in the morning for running/walking. It just seems far more peaceful.
As the day progressed, I decided I would get some Pilates in and give my leg a rest, which for some reason has been bother me. I like to listen to the not so… “New Age-y” music they got going on on my Pilates DVD, so I play some Punk or something that gets me awake and in a good mood. That was the plan anyway. Until I spent over an hour looking for a particular CD that has magically disappeared. I haven’t a clue where it is but, I’m sure all the Pop-Punk haters are laughing their butts off, heh! Yeah, I like Pop-Punk… so sue me.
After spending way too much time searching for my Paramore CD (whoops! Probably shouldn’t have admitted I like THAT dreadful band 😜.), I finally got Pilates in. But of course I was starving at this point. I finished up, made myself a smoothie and got out to run my errands. When Wal-Mart is a part of your day, expect to be in a bad mood at some point, my friends. It’s just… the worst. No matter how cheap their prices are, they will always be (unless they change) the worst. So, I’m coming home with a few pounds of bananas and some almond milk, and I just wanna cross the street. I live off of a very busy street which doesn’t have any lights. You can walk a block to get to the lights, but it annoys me that I have to do this in order to get across the street. So, this guy speeds down the street, sees me in the middle trying to get across and he just speeds up some more and then has the nerve to stare me down, like a piece of meat. I don’t like skeevy guys. At this point in the day, I’m tired, hungry, annoyed but mostly hungry. And this guy just got on my last nerve. I was doing SO well. And then it happened. I Stone Cold salute the guy. That’s a wrestling reference btw… basically, I flipped him the bird. As soon as I did it, I knew it was wrong. I felt awful. I didn’t feel good about myself. I heard a car horn beep several times and thought to myself,
"This dude could have a gun. Or worse! He could be one of my neighbors!" 😳
Don’t ask me how I thought that scenario could’ve been worse…
I guess what I’m getting at is, whatever you’re going through in a day, a week, a month or longer! It shouldn’t take over your whole life. Struggles, problems, whether they’re big or small, should NEVER keep you in a bad mood where you get to the point of taking it out on a complete stranger (skeevy or not) or your friends and family. Don’t ever let problems take over YOU. I’ve done that for years. And I’m still trying to NOT let my problems get the best of me. The difference now, compared to a few years ago is, I know how to deal with it, what triggered it and how to get on with my day. I know most people think that I had every right to flip that guy off or be angry and annoyed, that, that emotion is normal and “healthy” which is what I use to think. But… for me, personally, I don’t find that to be true any more. I don’t find that having high blood pressure because I don’t know how to control my temper or having my family worry about whether someone is going to retaliate one day, is normal OR healthy. I’ve always been a little sarcastic (I blame my dad) and I like to kid around, that’s part of my personality. Being a jerk… that’s not something I wanna be known for.
I guess my advice is, try not to let your problems get the best of you. Yes, you may be working on your temper like I am or maybe you’re just bummed all the time. Whatever it is that you’re struggling with, work on it. Try harder. Be better. The LEAST you can do is try, right?
Enjoy the rest of your week guys! As always, thanks for following!